My tailbone area has been hurting so I decided to address that immediately with a yin baddha konasana (my sanskrit spelling is a little rusty right now, sorry). This is probably my favorite pose because I can always do it no matter my energy level. Hanging your head down and shutting out the world while opening up your hips is always therapeutic. I could feel my tailbone and pelvis spreading and opening into a new state of spaciousness I desperately needed.
I eventually rolled forward into malasana (squat) and settled my weight into my pelvis and hips and felt my low back start to soften. From there I immediately jumped to down dog but the pain in my sacrum area was still a bit too much to straighten my legs and tilt my tailbone to the sky so I dropped to all fours and and did a few delicious rounds of cat/cow tilts. Next I did a frog and finally my hips and low back started feeling more open. I did cat/cow again for good measure just because it felt good. I don't know what came over me (it was probably the dance music) but I was in the mood for strengthening so I did some core strengthening work from all fours, which really heated up my body and let me release a lot of physical and emotional tension.
I had thought maybe I'd take notes on what I did and try to design a yoga lesson I could teach to others. Or come up with an idea for another YouTube video. I got out the Lulu Bandha's Teacher Training Manual for ideas. I started doing the very simple Lunge Salute Sans Vinyasa on page 93 and I kept repeating it.
Lunge has become one of those formerly simple poses that now I feel like I don't know how to do. There's so much to think about. I can't quite get all the things I know about it to line up. I hang out there in lunge, thinking through the instructions one thing at a time: shoulders down, check. Tailbone tucked, check. Don't sink into the front hip, check. Heart open---wait, now my low back is compressing! It's such a beautiful pose but I feel so stiff and awkward in it right now.
Anyway I moved at a fairly fast pace through a few rounds of lunge salutes, throwing in a vinyasa here and there. As I got out of my head and into my body, my yoga no longer needed a purpose, whether to get me in shape, to enlighten me, or to serve as fodder for teaching others. All that mattered was that it felt great! Eventually I dropped down for another frog, cat/cow, side plank, child's, and pigeon. I had planned to get back up but pigeon grounded and quieted me so much that I simply did a supine twist, switched on the savasana playlist, laid back and let go.